i haven't been here in a while. Work has been devouring me.

work is ending soon.

yesterday was my sister's birthday.

my sister's boyfriend was uber sweet. he's not in singapore now since he's finishing his masters in Michigan. so before he left for America, he ordered cake to be delivered to my house on my sister's birthday. and sent pretty clothes to my sister. /envious.

the cake was delicious, kinda like non-alcoholic tiramisu. my mom was cute. she was trying to keep it a surprise, so she told my sister she had ordered cake already to keep my sister from buying her own cake. then the cake was late, so she got a little frantic and my sister seemed a little puzzled, esp. when my mom said she didn't have the cake people's number.

the cake eventually arrived in a huge truck which was a little confusing cos my father was expecting the arrival of his new phone. the huge truck had its own refrigerating i think since it was good tiramisu XD

my sister and her boyfriend are sweet together. they have their fair share of quarrels of course, but somehow i think for them, it's not just love anymore. it's like they've grown on each other so much, they can't bear to be without the other.

Note: there's no punctuation in music cos the title of the song is too long. it should be:

the cardigans - i need some fine wine and you, you need to be nicer

on sunday, i had a complete meltdown. it was likely due to the build-up of stress, and the immense pressure i was feeling from my parents, since they would go on an overdrive whenever i used the computer, watched tv or did anything else but study. there was also that feeling of not being good enough, that i could try the best i could and it would still not be enough. no one ever said: "good job" or "keep up the good work". i remember when i told my mom how i was getting exhausted from doing a math paper a day, on top of school (this was before end of school), i was scolded instead for being stupid, and overestimating myself or something. ok, so maybe i added the last part, but that was how it was translated for me.

on sunday, i cried. i bawled my eyes out the entire day, giving myself massive headaches ayt least twice. i still managed to finish studying for physical chem which was heartening. went a little mad at night. was talking to myself and laughing at myself while doing mcqs. decided to read up a little for chem s, ended up giggling over funny words and my own jokes. like how sinister is latin for left so that mr. sinister in x-men actually means mr. left. (or was his name sinister X? which would be even funnier since that would mean left X. XD)/amused

sunday was unproductive but it got some things out. now my parents are a lot less pressurising. esp. monday when the haze and exhaustion made my brain feel like exploding. my mom was surprisingly nice and said if i didn't have to blow my brains out trying to study when my head hurt. so in a sense monday was even more unproductive, but i think i caught up on sleep, which is always a good thing XD

to the Scissor Sisters:

I love the music you make, the music you bring to the world. thank you for making love beautiful again without being stuck on cliched words and overly sappy, and wholely untrue phrases. thank you for getting me to get up and get down on the dancefloor in my home. thank you for being the filthy gorgeous people you are. i have never been prouder to proclaim my scissor sis-TAH-hood.

if you could be an apple what kind would you be?

i would like to run away from the world and pretend that it revolves around me. that my absence would send the world to its knees. and despite that i leave it all, if only to show my importance.

i refuse to do so, if only for the weight of reality that comes crashing down when i return, and realise i revolve atound the world and the world would be no different without me.

oh, my father is sweet. and highly pressurising at the same time. he printed everything i needed to know about the vet. medicine course at melbourne. it is literally EVERYTHING. from entry requirement to course details to entry date and deadlines. am losing my resolve to go uk. but australia isn't really bad. am psyching myself up to be happy wherever i go.

steve irwin died. it's ironic, everyone knows why. i liked him. not as much as attenborough but he was interesting to watch. his interview by conan o brien was amusing but it was unfortunately taken of youtube :( i wonder what will happen to the zoo now.

in other news, i am AMUSED. is it just me or is that the news? XDXDXD it reminds me of the thingum bout schweiski on german television. XD

was knitting alldoubtaboutit's present today. it takes me mind of the IMPENDING DOOM!!! got nice unfluffing yarn to work on. though since it's a hat, i had to get used to using double pointed needles. it was fiddly but i think i might be getting the hang of it. i think i have the tendency of choosing the tricky patterns though. it's supposed to be shaped like a starfish [have so totally spoilt the surprise but never mind...] but it's going to be a very lopsided starfish i think -___-""" ah well... knitting is fun

oh prettiness!!!

was reading my old testimonials and realise truely, i have never changed.

thank god for that.

i only wish i could live without the world.

hm...should be annoyed that there's lahm/mertesacker since timo/phillip = OTP. but i'm uber amused by philip/per because their height difference is about 9 inches i think.

mhmm...amused.

[but timo/phillip still = OTP]

ZOMG saw motorola's huge poster for the dolce & gabbana razr on my way to meet aulait on saturday. oh fuck they were hot. and look bloody good together. /dies. frankyl i didn't really care about the phone was just looking at dolce and gabbana. wanted the picture badly but grawr couldn't find a still on it. will love anyone who can find one for me. :)

erm...alright. sorry for the miscomm but for those watching thank you for smoking this weekend. is it alright if we meet on saturday morning and like have lunch afterwards? i kinda msged you all but i'm not sure if you got the message. just tell me if it's alright, k? if not we can like re-schedule or something. k thanks :)

oh nd yes, i'm pimping my otp :) though germany is much love general.

have been horrendously ill for the past few days. a horrible celebration to the end of my exams. had a fever that wouldn't go away and was kept at bay only by panadol. have slept more in the past 72 hours than i have throughout my exams and have been sniffling so badly my nose now hurts from all the sneezing.

all this was almost made worst by the fact that i thought have to go to school tomorrow since the fever was already gone by today and my father's a prude. then my mom reminded me it was youth day tomorrow but still, wasn't sure if i would be free. had to check the rj website which i almost never go before i knew.

cheered up a little after. was VERY VERY amused by this and jon stewart.

want to have a world cup party. anyone up for it? :) something like a pre prelims a levels exams in general thingy

i think alarm clocks aren't helpful. i set mine to 9 everyday but when it rings, i just wake up, turn it off and go back to sleep.

sometimes i don't even wake up. i remember once it rang and instead of waking up, i had a dream that i woke up and turned it off but i could still hear the ringing. was confused cos i really thought i turned it off. it was only when i really woke, around half an hour after it started ringing, that i realised everything.

i'm in love with socks. striped socks, spotted socks, long socks, short socks. want to go sock shopping. SOON.

today i had baked eggs with cheese, garlic and toast. it was warm and tasty and good.

tomorrow i shall attempt to bake bread. and maybe remember my primary school.

i wish i had a baseball bat to beat up something or someone. i have a broken stick stashed in my cupboard i think. but i can't use it cos it's to sharp and i might accidentally kill someone. :(

wish i wasn't in singapore so i could own a gun :(